Friday, April 1, 2011


Wouldn't it be cool if my sister-in-law or someone else called today and said, "April Fools! Justin didn't really die"?  Yeah.  That would be awesome.

Unfortunately, I know it's not going to happen.
But it WOULD be cool.
I wouldn't even be mad at him.

This is the cover to the funeral program.
Don't just look at the picture.
Read the journal entry that he wrote 5 years ago.

I too, have a testimony that we need to submit our will to the Lord's and that He has a plan for us that is much better than we can ever imagine.  He knows so much more than we ever will and has that eternal perspective that we cannot grasp.

However, I also have to admit that I'm not quite sure about the Lord's timing on this one.  I'm sure that some day.........and it might not be until after I die, I will have a full understanding, but today........not so much.


Neal and Shannon said...

I am still working on the whole timing issue myself. I just wish I could understand now!


Danelle said...

I've wondered myself what the Lord is doing sometimes in far less difficult circumstances. As the most impatient person in the world, I'll be praying that you don't have to wait until the next life to figure out His timing.

Julianna said...

I have started to write many things here, but nothing feels quite right...


Doreen McGettigan said...

I have given up wondering and questioning. I finally get 'God's Time'. I write about the journey to this understanding in my book.
God Bless You; that was a very sad post:(

Raven said...

Oh sweetie, I don't even know what to say. Sometimes we don't understand why things happen the way they do, but even if we did understand would it make it any easier to say good-bye? My heart aches for you.

Mama Badger said...

Even if you understand it, that doesn't make it easier to accept, does it? Thinking of you and your whole family. (more hugs)

Donna said...

What a beautiful photo and quote from your brother. I've been keeping you and your brother's family in my thoughts and prayers. I hope Conference this past weekend offered some solace and peace to you.

Dysfunctional Mom said...

I think we all question that whole timing thing. Your brother's journal entry is very wise. It's hard to obtain that calm assurance.
Again, so sorry for your loss. xo